Trying to figure out what the low points in my mood are. When does my anxiety happen?
Seems to be, with some consistency, that I begin feeling like crap around 11am, feel okay again at 3 or 4pm, then feel like crap again at 10 or 11 pm. If I stay up late, the bad feeling will continue until I’m too exhausted to have emotions.
Amount of sleep I’ve had can inflame this, but the time it happens doesn’t seem to shift. If I’m completely occupied (physically and mentally) then it can be masked, but the minute I drop what I’m doing, the anxiety comes back.
This is at least an improvement than what the norm has been for several years, feeling low always. And I’m in a position where I can say definitively it’s a completely irrational emotion. There’s no cause to this. Even if something kicks it off, the “something” could be excessively minor. Like the kind of something you’d brush off or not even think about in a normal frame of mind. But rather than brush it off, my brain goes into overdrive. It circles around whatever the something is until it becomes a much bigger deal.
By a few hours later I’m fine, but I hate feeling so sensitive about stuff I know is dumb.
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